Dear Peanut,

So tonight, I was supposed to edit a manuscript for one of my #YAI2017 students. But your AuntieMarley sent me a message on Facebook and asked something about a project we worked on before.

And then boom, we started talking about baby stuff, like breastfeeding and breast pumps and seminars and all things I haven’t really studied yet.

I mean, I know I’m supposed to research on these things soon, and we, umm, sort of umm scheduled it later this month because, err, we keep delaying it because, um, it is just so overwhelming!!

I mean, it’s like algebra to me.

I know next to nothing about how these things work and SC is being a pain in the ass trolling me that he’ll do the breast pumping himself and shit and that I don’t need all these fancy-ass breast pump machines and I just end up getting all riled up and we’ll end up fighting because it is just too much-----we both don’t know anything about being new parents!!!

When you finally pop out, it will be like our baptism of fire. Nothing can really prepare you for the birth of your child, they say. Not even our own parents and now I’m worried because some of the things our parents (your grandparents) know about childcare are outdated already.

Like how am I supposed to know that there’s a proper way of latching onto a nipple?? I read about it in the baby book we bought in Manila but WTF, how do I do that in real life? It’s not like I can practice with SC!

And when I try to explain all the things I read and learn to SC he’ll just say, it’s natural babe, you don’t need this and that…argh!!!

Like just a few minutes ago, we were arguing about the Medela breast pump machine, he said, “Babies know that already. Kahit ako lumapit sa breast mo, magla-latch ako.”

So I screamed at him to stop trolling me and I felt you kick and punch and make a fuss inside my tummy. So instead of editing, I just logged onto YouTube and decided to play some classical music so we can bond.

Anyway, there’s a Mommy / Baby Clearance Sale this weekend in Ortigas so we’ll go there on Sunday. Tomorrow, we watch Indie Films first. And we told ourselves that starting this August, we’ll dedicate Saturdays attending new parents seminars and all those events we had no interest before.

This new parents thing is just so overwhelming, anak. I hope you understand that we are doing everything we can.

And oh, we have an ocular tomorrow for your badass sausage party-themed baby shower. We need to calm our tits because we are slowly transitioning into a stag/bachelorette party instead of the usual baby shower.

xoxo,
Update (as of March 29, 2018): Changed my codename from Queen Bitch (QB) to Tiger Mom (TM).